Season Insecurity

Well, low and behold, I caught the spring bug going around and have been pretty miserable for about a  week or so.  I’m feeling better though.  Soup, sleep and sweet morning back-rubs from the hubs has made the virus start to call it quits! Good!  Aside from feeling physically blah, my emotions have taken a dive too;  must be one of those seasons.   I’ve been extremely happy with how life is going and how blessed I’ve been but I’m nervous that this happiness is going to come to a swift stop; only lasting a season.  My insecurity has seemed to spread like a virus too!  Jared has had a few of those emotion-diving days… not the same concerns but nonetheless, they were there.  I’ve talked to God a little here and there about it but I know or have come to know that the more you get closer to God the more the devil tries to upset the balance.  I feel that talking to God will make the happy season stop.

Alright…I know God is all powerful and can do anything to change anything but the answer to my problem seems way too easy here.  I know, God.  I hear you.  Bible time!  Let’s start taking advantage of this virus and the time off!

Okay! Ecclesiastes, chapter 9.   Verse 11 to 12 reads, “I (Solomon) have observed something else in this world of ours.  The fastest runner doesn’t always win the race, and the strongest warrior doesn’t always win the battle.  The wise are often poor, and the skillful are not necessarily wealthy, And those who are educated don’t always lead successful lives.  It is all decided by chance, by being at the right place at the right time. People can never predict when hard times might come.  Like fish in a net or bids in a snare, people are often caught by sudden tragedy.”   The footnote reads “Some people see such examples and call life unfair, and they are right.  The world is finite, and sin has twisted life, making it what God did not intend.”  This says to me that regardless of how I see my relationship with God, bad things can happen either way!  This doesn’t seem happy but distancing myself from God is not beneficial.  Creating this barrier caused strife and insecurities.  I can’t predict what will happen but I can do my best to let God help me with whatever I may need.  And it seems I needed this knowledge.  I feel better already! 

Ecclesiates, Chapter 9 had another great gem in verse 9!  I LOVE marriage verses!!

Verse 9 reads, “Live happily with the woman you love through all the meaningless days of life that God has given you in this world.  The wife God gives you is your reward for all your earthly toil.”   

Not only did God give me some wisdom to help with my insecurities but he let me know that I’m a “reward”!!  I’m a prize!  

Wisdom AND a compliment!  Thank you, Lord!